diary...

purity ,

another journey of diving deep into the roots of who i am , what could be , what i have lost , running away from temptations , pushing...

Mihlali Mciteka

Jul 101 min read

maygone ,

i thought that things would work out eventually , i thought that we would put everything aside , in order to light up our spark , i woke...

Mihlali Mciteka

Jun 131 min read

, physically here , mentally gone pt 1,

detaching is the process , i feel like i am here but far gone , i keep losing parts of myself that make me , me , parts of myself that i...

Mihlali Mciteka

May 211 min read

it's about you ,

how i wish things turned out for the better , i lost myself while i was deep within my thoughts , painting pictures of what could have...

Mihlali Mciteka

May 191 min read

death at your point of view ,

i am tired of lying to myself that this is not about you , it is indeed about you , you have ruined the little hope that i had inside of...

Mihlali Mciteka

Apr 141 min read

jump from the tallest building ,

if there was a time that i doubted GOD , i know HE exists through you , you have been there for me , picked me up even at times i wanted...

Mihlali Mciteka

Apr 92 min read

february skies ,

death , came knocking at my door , grief , demanded me to feel everything , mourning , needed me to be present in everything , you , left...

Mihlali Mciteka

Mar 31 min read

ghost of you ,

they can have you , i will always hold the ghost of you , the memories shared will forever live on , but the people we are now , are far...

Mihlali Mciteka

Mar 31 min read

lose you to love me ,

tell me about your true intentions , what changed ? how did we drift so much apart ? how did you wake up hating me so much ? what did you...

Mihlali Mciteka

Feb 171 min read

insane ,

i felt lonely at your watch , i felt lonely in your arms , i felt lonely in your touch , it felt as if you were not there but you were ,...

Mihlali Mciteka

Feb 141 min read

i needed you , but then , lost you ,

countless times you feel disappointment from those you love , with every disappointment , comes a second chance , i opened my heart , to...

Mihlali Mciteka

Feb 121 min read

seasons ,

here we go again , i believe that life is masked , covered in different seasons , those are the different chapters of your life , not...

Mihlali Mciteka

Jan 281 min read

hi friend ,

hi , how have you been doing ? no , really how have you been doing ? hi , life is really harsh , how are you to yourself ? hi , i...

Mihlali Mciteka

Jan 281 min read

less awake ,

what do you see in my eyes when you look at me ? how do you feel with every touch that comes from me ? what runs in your head when you...

Mihlali Mciteka

Jan 281 min read

barely alive ,

i wonder , i sit by myself and wonder , a lot of time has passed , i think about the future , i worry so much about myself , it scares me...

Mihlali Mciteka

Jan 281 min read

meet me at home ,

Mihlali Mciteka

Oct 191 min read

taste ,

Mihlali Mciteka

Sep 181 min read

burnt out blue ,

Mihlali Mciteka

Sep 181 min read

...with love , Meezus .

Mihlali Mciteka

Aug 51 min read

healing clothed in trauma ,

Mihlali Mciteka

Jul 262 min read

purity ,

Mihlali Mciteka

Jul 101 min read

meet me at home ,

i carried so much of my past with me , i thought that every baggage within me , was a sign of strength and possible growth , i allowed so much of the world's perspectives to get to me , i stood at the tip of what could have ended my life , looking back at how much of myself i was willing to let go of , a lot of the things that made sense to you , made none to me , i saw parts of myself just the way you would see me , disgusted , i almost let go of the goodness of what i carr

Mihlali Mciteka

Oct 191 min read