lose you to love me ,

tell me about your true intentions ,

what changed ?

how did we drift so much apart ?

how did you wake up hating me so much ?

what did you think i would do without you ?

i felt the cracks of my heart when you uttered my worst fear ,

all i wanted was you ,

i wanted something so wrong ,

but it felt so good ,

i endured so much but i was willing to stay throughout ,

losing you made me realize the depth of my heart ,

losing you made me realize how much i did not love myself ,

losing you made me realize how much i lowered every belief i had that was in my bones ,

with all that love ,

it was never enough ,

i was never enough ,

with all that love ,

i could not make you stay ,

i wanted you so much ,

i wanted you to want me as much ,

thoughtfulness and consideration ,

is something that does not resonate with you ,

i lost you ,

lost you in the arms of another ,

what does he have that i don't ?

i had to lose you , to love me ,

i wish to never go through this pain again ,

i hope you never get to experience that ,

x