, physically here , mentally gone pt 1,

detaching is the process ,

i feel like i am here but far gone ,

i keep losing parts of myself that make me , me ,

parts of myself that i feel like the people that i meet , should experience ,

i feel trapped ,

with no saving ,

its as if i am breathing under water ,

i am drowning...

i walk into rooms ,

feeling cold ,

as if i am unseen and too invisible ,

trying my best to live up to my full potential ,

with each day , i feel drained ,

i feel like i am far to what i am working towards ,

but yet i do not know the full destination ,

i need help ,

i am drowning...

i am beginning to question a lot of things ,

things that were never an issue ,

they are somehow affecting me ,

i begin to question ,

the meaning of life ,

my existence ,

just everything around me ,

i feel everything ,

that could be a blessing and a curse ,

i am drowning...

i am in my head quite a lot ,

trying to figure out ,

how to move from each point ,

it can be scary ,

navigating through a head that might make me think that unaliving myself could be a valid move ,

putting to words how i feel can be very challenging ,

hence i am internally crashing ,

i am still drowning .