M-O-T-H-E-R

you came right after that call ,

it should be painful to see your son on the floor , looking lifeless .

you picked me up, dressed me as i was weak ,

i was so weak to do it myself .

i lost so much of myself from that day .

i cannot imagine the pain you felt , it was so much on my side .

i have not been okay ever since ,

i try to be strong , but i feel like i am losing so much of myself even more ,

i try to be strong for you .

my cup is empty , you pour so much of yourself in it , but still it runs dry .

you give me love when i fail to do so myself .

i saw the pain in your eyes when i told you that i wanted to die .

i still want to not exist but if i do , who will you love the way you love me ?

who will put a smile on your face effortlessly like i do ?

who will make your life easier as i hope that one day i would ?

who will make your dreams a reality if i am not here ?

sometimes i feel like i am failing myself and everyone around me .

why are these dark thoughts occupying my head ?

mama , you give me so much hope .

in a world of the negatives , you are the light .

you have done everything in your power to reassure me , i am truly grateful ,

what did i do to deserve you ? i thank

G-O-D

some days are low , very low ,

but still you give me so much hope .

when my cup is empty , you pour so much of yourself in it ,

but i still run heavily dry .

you give me love , when i fail to do so myself ,

my heart is heavy ,

my heart is heavy .

i am hopeful for better days ,

if you are reading this , the little hope you have inside of you ,

live up to it .

i luv u .