tied ,

foundation ,

we happened not to pay attention to the red flags that screamed so much of our differences ,

not in a million years have i felt out of place the more i spend time with someone ,

i thought we built a solid foundation , i was wrong ,

i felt so much tied to you , losing track of the possibilities of things coming to an end ,

we solider on , filling the empty rooms with love ,

feeling lonely day in and day out ,

forgetting about our purpose ,

working towards pursuing an unforeseen future ,

that was quick to turn blurry ,

i lost you but this time around , i did not lose myself ,

accountability has the best of us sometimes ,

no one is willing to arrive to the occasion , tell me where did it all go wrong ?

expectations ,

at times we over exaggerate our positions in peoples lives ,

not knowing half of things we mean to them ,

who to blame ?

let us take a moment to blame ourselves for everything that we may feel but too slow to account to ,

my heart bleeds at every loss that i come in contact with ,

i cannot help but to think of my role in everything ,

i cannot help but to blame myself for everything ,

realization ,

i am realizing now more than anything of the importance of creating meaningful relations ,

maintaining those relations and keeping them ,

i cannot stay mad at things for way too long ,

i cannot be in environments where i constantly feel unwelcomed ,

i cannot be associated with people that appreciate less of me ,

i cannot be in spaces where i feel less alive ,

with every crack that was paid less attention to ,

it is felt now ,

i feel like there is no turning back and why do i feel this way ?

those red flags started to feel like a lifestyle , we were losing it ,

i wrote your name on the sand and the water went right on top of it ,

it was cleared ,

i wish it was that easy to let go .