The day that you fear the most knocks at your door , you answer thinking its good news or an opportunity for greater things but its the day of your loss. Losing someone you truly love is difficult , letting go takes forever cause the feeling is unusual . Your world breaks so much that it leaves you feeling empty. Its as if your entire soul has left you and everything that made you happy has turned its back on you.
Looking around everything does not make sense , you're questioning yourself through the process ,is it normal to feel this way? Why do i cry so much? Will everything be fine again? You're just surrounded by your thoughts and you in a room full of people but you are still lonely. How did we get here? How do things work? Is the Lord seeing right through my struggles? I hear a lot about growth that comes with loss . I guess this is part of His plan and this the only way to grow.
Delivery ,Delivery i never saw you coming , i cannot fault you for anything cause all you were is to be a messenger to me, to something that was already done. You came to me at a time i least expected you, at a time i was regaining my faith again, i kind of lost that but you were still there by me hoping i do not break.
This is my process my process and i am allowing myself to feel everything and to go about this way , i am leaving no emotion unattended, it is a roller coaster. I am here for it all as healing takes time , i hope i heal and if you are going through the emotions i hope you find healing too.'
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