scared of loving you ,

i woke up one morning ,

feeling a bit puzzled on how i wanted to present myself to you ,

looking back ,

i found that i lost so much of myself trying to be there for someone else ,

someone else that was hardly there for me ,

i woke up one morning ,

thinking about how it is easy to project feelings you have once felt ,

projecting onto the wrong people ,

but at times familiar rooms might make you feel things that you thought you have ,

dealt and healed from ,

i woke up one morning ,

with so much fear of how i wanted to love you ,

and how i wanted to be loved by you ,

a soft landing that is kind to my heart ,

so i could be the best person to you as i wish to be the best person to myself ,

too scared of loving you ,

deep down i know that one day you would leave ,

too scared of loving you ,

deep down i do not want to go through the same cycle ,

too scared of loving you ,

looking at how the world treats those who love deeply ,

and just like that... so much adjustments need to be made ,

with two hearts who are willing to go down that route as one ,

what are you afraid of ?