there could be something dark about midnight , besides being dark when you step outside of the house but rather how you manage to go through so many seasons all in that hour . i found that i feel lonely in the am's , i get vulnerable , i get needy , just take my hand until i feel like myself again .
it becomes difficult to carry yourself in the midst of it all , where does your happiness go when you are left all alone in the dark? what happens when you fully lose yourself? everything comes to play when are fully in your head .
it breaks my heart that at times you could hear voices that nobody else could hear, insane right? i found myself at the graveyard at 1:22am in the morning , i could not control how i felt inside , i just had to let it all out .
it is quite unfortunate that when you try to let it all out , that is when it sticks and you have to book yourself for more crying sessions . each and every person goes through their seasons , hurt always seems like a season that lasts a bit longer than the others .
i wish we could get to a point where healing is not part of our narrative but rather a thing of the past , we are human unfortunately that is impossible . better days seem too far but while we wait for such days we should be grateful for everything that we have .
it is tough having to not control yourself when you breakdown , it is painful trying to work on yourself while it is difficult to dig deep , it hurts having to try your best to put yourself together but continuously fail at that .
when is your lonely hour? do you have anyone to talk to when you feel like you are at your lowest? we might not know when we will live our lives smoothly but a bit of hope could go a long way , have faith , this is life things can be full circle x.
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