the past few weeks have been the worst in terms of my mental state, i have been feeling everything ,
i know at times it comes as a blessing but this time around it came to me as a curse .
i have been trying all possible ways to make myself see the greatest life gifts , but that did not
help at all in how damaged i feel i feel inside .
the voices in my head that i wish would go away , they are still there . i cannot seem to find
an escape from hearing every one of them . i keep telling myself that i should not be hear ,
that i am not worthy of life , love and every other thing that is going on in life , in essence i
am very tired of existing , i am tired of myself but i cannot run away from me !!
i have been feeling so lonely while there are other people around me , while there are so many
hands to reach out to , what could possibly be the reason ? there does not seem to be a solution
at hand , in most days i will casually feel like screaming but with every loud sound there has
to be tears that will fuck the whole feeling up .
i sit and wonder , are better days that we so long for ever coming ? are we ever going to get to
the happy seasons of our lives ?
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