...the learning & the unlearning ,

it feels like a pattern ,

it is funny how i always find myself here ,

everytime ,

whenever i think of giving myself to someone wholeheartedly ,

i always find myself in this position .

i began to ask myself really insightful questions , like ,

is there anything wrong with me or who i am ?

what could i do differently ?

was it ever worthy ?

what did i do wrong ?

i still look down within myself ,

for all the answers that i cannot give myself ,

but all these quiet rooms do , is to make me feel more lonely ,

i am learning to unlove you ,

i am learning to let go of you ,

i am learning to be fine without you ,

i am learning to live without thinking of you ,

i am learning to think past you ,

i am learning to unlove you ,

it is a pattern , it is a cycle ,

i should not feel like i am a failure everytime my efforts go unnoticed ,

i should not feel like i am less human everytime you do not see me ,

we could have been magic but i am not crying over spilled milk .