, disregarded

i felt it down in my bones that you were going to leave ,

i tried to convince my mind that you were mine ,

you were never mine like that ,

you made it seem like you were passing time ,

passing time at my expense ,

you made every bit my bones feel alive ,

now that you are you gone ,

it felt pressured to try to work on new habits ,

i had to be under someone else to feel less of your presence ,

it was a quick fix , that tore me down ,

when all i wanted was to be everything to you ,

long nights that felt like they would take my life ,

how are you this gorgeous and mean at the same time ?

how did you become my everything when i was nothing to you ?

how did you make me feel alive just to turn on me ,

i hope you get what you are looking for .

i felt it down in my bones that you were going to leave ,

my mind knows that you are not mine ,

you were never mine ,

you were passing time ,

passing time at my expense ,

and that is just okay .