i could feel my soul leave my body each and every day i wake . i have never felt like i should not be here , my self-worth has been on its most lowest , i needed saving but without feeling like a burden to others . each day we fight with these demons , i feel unwanted by myself , i feel worthless , i feel less appreciated , i feel like i do not belong here , i have this sharp pain on my chest that would not go away .
every day i wake i feel less alive , i feel trapped in my own dark and twisted thoughts which often convince me otherwise . for so long i had thoughts of dying , the thought of death gave me so much pressure that is when i knew , my thoughts are dangerous . i could not see the light that everyone around me would talk about .
what is this life? what is this pain? i feel drained . second chance of life but at what cost? i do not know how i feel but i could say , internally i am in so much pain . pain which i do not know how to explain to other people . i feel tired of having to show up to myself and other people . how long will it take for all of this to end?
i have made it out of the most challenging period of my life , a suicide attempted that could have been successful . i am grateful to say the least . i was given a second chance of life , my life is now different , taking it a day at a time . i hope everything will get to a point where the pain is completely gone , where i could look up to the skies and feel completely free from all the hardship .
i believe , i believe the pain will go away one day x.
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